HELLO, i know it’s been a while, but things have happened.
the following is a series of five images i created several months ago, when i was trying to figure some stuff out in my life. my original idea was to just create a bunch of constructed-reality shots based on “self-” statements, like self-help, self-serving, etc.
the more i thought about it, the weirder and more personal it got. the narrative isnt as prevalent as i want it to be, but i feel very good about the images themselves.

self-inflicted

self-reliant

self-loathing

self-destruction

self-realization
the “plot” and cast of characters go like this:
white t-shirt guy is the subject. he is the only real person in this series, as shown by the others being slightly transparent/composites of several images.
blue plaid shirt guy is one side of the subject’s conscience.
white dress shirt guy is the other side.
literal story is as follows:
1-the subject has made some decision or mistake that is so abhorrent that he sees it fit to blind himself. his conscience debates this decision, but ultimately, it seems that the one wearing the white dress shirt wins.
2-the “losing” side of the subject’s conscience feeds him, helps him do things he can no longer do, due to the previous decision.
3-as a result of the initial decision, the subject continues to have problems (water spilling), which upset the caregiving figure.
4-the caregiver eventually can take no more, and, knowing that the subject’s initial decision is the source of all this misfortune, decides to smother the subject in his sleep.
5-the caregiver feels regret, looking at what he’s done, but his counterpart attempts to explain that every decision was ultimately made by the subject himself.
i think, for an image series to be successful, it needs to be able to be read in multiple ways. seeing as how i myself got a lot of different messages from this, i think i succeeded.
throughout my work on these pieces, i wrote down and thought about many different meanings/topics in relation to the overarching theme of this work: the perils of overreacting to a situation. learning to move past poor decisions. working on picking yourself back up after something doesn’t go your way. not letting things out of your control frustrate you. not letting known problems fester until they become unsolvable.
while i am confident in this work, i was very apprehensive to show it to anybody, due to its personal nature. however, i think i need to start being more open with people, and i feel that this is a good start.
thank you for your interest, i appreciate all of you. :)
-bill@creaturegods.com